Gratitude from the heart

For those who don't know this past week has been pretty intense and eye opening for us as a family. On wednesday I was out of the house before 7am and on my way to Heath Hospital to have a surgical procedure to fix a heart defect that is the cause of electrical misfires in my heart, making it race from 70 beats per minute to 200+ in a split second, something I have found hard to cope with for the past 3
years.

I am not going to lie I was terrified, especially since I would have to be awake the whole time but with a 95% cure rate if you have two of the three of pathways affected it always felt like the right thing to do. Unfortunately after nearly two hours into the procedure they could confirm my pathway (the third one) is located in an area considered high-risk and would involve piercing the heart to get to, this meant having come all this way, lying on the table with wires around my heart to be delivered the blow that on this occasion they could not fix the problem. It was disappointing to say the least, especially since this procedure in itself carried risks but there were positives that came out of it, they now knew exactly where and what my defect was and how to treat it, it means going on medication for the foreseeable future with the prospect of more invasive surgery but we were told I could go ahead with a pregnancy which is what we were waiting for, of course with more monitoring and it wouldn't be easy but it's possible.

At the moment I am just relaxing, recovering and taking things slow. Things like this always make you realise how much you have in life and how grateful I am for all the wonderful and beautiful people I know and love but it's also the small things that make life so amazing, so wanted to stay sharing the things I have been so grateful for each week

1. Wonderful family support
2. Cuddles from my little man
3. Being able to work from home during all of this
4. Our vegetables in the garden starting to grow at a face pace
5. Having time to read a new book
6. A wonderful lazy lunch with my mother
7. Being spoilt with a new summer dress

8. Making lots of plans for the house, we have a year until we sell!
9. Looking forward to the future

Joined up with Enchanted Pixie Gratitude linky